Tuesday, 5 August 2008
{ 12:52 }
DEEEEE, I MISS YOXZXZ LIKE HELL ! D:BY THE WAY, ITS OKAY. TKYAH FEEL GUILTY LA BABE. lol.Remember my previous post i said that, its gonna be my last post? Guess what, the people who's gonna take my computer, have decided to give me another day. I guess its basically because i kinda begged and showed affection for the computer. lol? Oh comeon, if someone takes away something precious away from you, you'll do whatever it takes to get it back right? Im in that kinda situation right now people. Pardon my semangat-ness. (!) Anyway, since they given back my comp ( even for A day ), what else, i'll blog then.
The past weekend.2nd was my birthday and 3rd we celebrated at a chalet. Believe it or not, during the party i didn't feel so excited. Instead, i felt a mixture of sadness and happiness. I'm not sure why the feeling but im guessing i know. Anyway, Chia came first to the chalet. lawl. And her present, is so the cute. Hahaha. From then, more people came. Fadhli and Ab liked the chicken wings. Especially, FADHLI. sheesh. Hahaha. Keep on asking for more and more and more. I would love to tell you how many he ate, but i lost count. D: And, i was actually surprised when i saw Hardy. Its not that i didn't invited him. Everyone can come down. But its like .. ahh tkper la. Lawl.
Plus, Rafie and Aidil were so the lazy to take their food. (!) Maybe they were malu or like lazy. I don't know. Hahah. So of course i took it for them. No matter what, they're still my guest. D:
For me, the best part was when Arep and his friends came. But the bad thing was, everyone by then went home. I scolded Arep for coming late. Lawl. But the best thing was, my family kinda bonded with Arep, Wan, Awie, Lyn and the rest. We ate, laughed and some were even pissed. hahaha. During that time only i felt like i was accepted there. It takes alot of strength and confidence for me to REALLY feel accepted with anyone. People think im okay with people. Thats true, but you don't really know what im feeling inside. With others, its like im feeling im not supposed to be there. With or without me around, it doesn't matter ya'know. So go ahead and say what you wanna say. That what im feeling with
them. Hence, the jauh-ness. lol. But seriously speaking, i don't care anymore. Especially her. I'm 100% sure she's enjoying this inside. Just like a chameleon with a million outer looks. So slowly, i'm gonna back away from them. And i am already.
